kiss me it'll heal

Updating my dA journal? forget it...

I guess I can do that...   Last weekend was Otafest. I had more fun than any other year I've gone and recieved the least wank this year as compared to previous years. Do these things correspond? perhaps, perhaps!  I kept to myself and my small group of friends this year since I rarely ever get to see them and I had a ball harmlessly trolling this hallway con to our best of abilities. The best parts were when we were not at Otafest though, rather at the Ming becoming communist, at Twisted being fags ( it ended horribly), or late night hottubing.

The good:
- SKYE SKYE SKYE SKYE
- GABBY AND ELLIOT <3
- partying
- comfortable costumes
- half a dozen milkshakes
- U MAD?

The bad:
- getting sick at twisted
- getting in a fight at the bar
- no johnny, all weekend... the worst
- little photoshoot time
- COSPLAY COMPETITION. Holy crap I wanted to shoot myself.

Awesome weekend was awesome and I am in withdrawl.
Unfortunately enough for me, strangely good I decided on no Fanime though, I have papers, midterms and Johnny's play is next week.  The paper is slowly sucking the life out of me, a very interesting topic, analizing and comprehending a set of lyrics of your choice, leave it to me to pick the red hot chili peppers though... yeah, I'm the most depressed. Lyrical genius but what a sad life Anthony leads.  Strangely I connect with it on such a different level than I previously thought I would, I feel myself wanting to know and help whoever this poor man is.

Anyway uhm, the play! Holy shit it's over next week, I have a few more costumes to prepare but I think it'll be okay in the end, I have all weekend to get that done along with the essay and studying for my midterm.  I will be so happy when this is over so I can not have to think about it all the time.
Work is good, school is great, it's snowing... I guess mental life is going pretty swell. Thanks to my life mantra "haters gonna hate" I've really just stopped caring about things I can't change. Love life is excellent, sometimes I hate him and want to ask what the hell he's thinking but only when I'm not around him, weird. It's been over a year and a half now, I've stopped counting months and I still can't get enough. I won't go into that here though. I'm finally feeling something in return, for the longest time I could never feel anything in return for a boyfriend, it's a big step.

Wow, long entry right? sorry.

Art and cosplay wise (RELEVANT TO dA)
I feel like I want to start doing more artsy photoshoots than cosplay. With themes and such... I have a bunch of themes in mind that personally affect me, some really dark, some super phantasmal, some involving water and some really plain, but I have no idea where to start or who to ask! Perhaps I should just do self portraiture, be vain tali. I haven't taken a picture of myself outside of cosplay progress for... what seems like years.

Lightning turned out to be a great failure. Thanks to me not fitting the vest properly or styling the wig I looked like a tool. Personally I'm glad I didn't win anything for it because I would have been angry with otafest. I want to remake the vest for sure and thin out the wig a little, perhaps make a gunblade and then Gabby will join me as Serah <3
I have so many plans for cosplays, but only concerning my last few for next years sakuracon and CCEE. Sakuracon is looking great with some Evangelion varients (AAAA I'M NOT SAYING ANYTHING BUT, TESTING /trollface).  Skye and I are also going to take on FFIV next year. VI was the best but I feel like my Rydia doesn't measure up. SO I'll be redoing that and Skye will make the prettiest Rosa ever. We're talking about doing a panel and I'm incredibly game for it, SOO I'm really looking forward to it!
CCEE I've got myself talked into so many different options, RedSkull wants me as Supergirl for their booth but, I'd want to remake it for several different reasons, I'm really feeling Black Widow,(because I just love Scarlett so damn much), Johnny wants to be Nick Fury (NOT ALT UNIVERSE, THANKS) So perhaps I can do that for him, he'd be fucking adorable as Fury.
ALSO I've been oggling Rin's Meltdown design lately, I might make it, shut up I'm not out of cosplay yet.  I think over summer I might do Meltdown and possibly a casual Sheryl design.

Sorry guys, this is ridiculously long and full of feelings.  I think thats all I have to say though